Life As It Is

2012-01-13T02:58:00.001+08:00

Pulling A Knife Out Of My Back

2011-12-05T07:40:00.001+08:00

Oh how you betrayed me.

So this is how it feels like.

But it's okay, I will survive.

I will always survive.

It has been proven that emotions don't kill me =)

Dalam hati lain cerita.

2011-12-03T00:23:00.001+08:00

It's like, the song choices of The Troubletones are so apt.

But I still love the Adele mash-up.

2011-11-14T20:21:00.001+08:00

Sharing Moments. I Miss.

2011-07-19T16:49:00.002+08:00

Maybe instead of chasing and waiting for people that I am into, I should just sit and wait for him who would protect me from all harm and love me dearly no matter what.

My First Week

2011-07-19T08:52:00.003+08:00

My e-mail to Mama:

Assalamualaikum Mama and Papa,

Dah seminggu Ayin kat sini, Ayin cerita dari mula ya?

Flight:
Sampai UM on time, sampai di KLIA pun on time juga. Perjalanan ke Vietnam mengambil masa 2 jam. Transit di Vietnam selama 2 jam. Flight ke Busan 5 jam. Atas kapal ada serve Muslim food. Masa landing di Busan tu hujan. Kapal terbang tu swerve ke kiri dan ke kanan lepas dia land di Busan. Agak menakutkan, tak pernah jadi macam tu. Turbulence pun banyak masa dalam perjalanan.

Sampai di Busan:
Alin duduk kat bandar Busan tau Mama, bukan Seoul. Seoul capital city, Busan ni bandar kedua terbesar selepas Seoul. Sampai jam 7AM waktu tempatan (6AM waktu Malaysia). Tunggu dalam 3 jam untuk bus Pukyong University untuk ambil kitorang. Hujan pun agak lebat masa tu. Dalam bus tido je.

Pukyong National University (PKNU):
Ini la nama universiti Alin kat sini. Tengah-tengah bandar juga. Alin ambil course History of Europe. Sepatutnya class dah start Isnin lepas (27 Julai) tapi lecturer miss flight dia dan ada masalah peribadi, jadi kelas tunda next week (4 Julai, esok). Lecturer extend kan satu jam bagi setiap kelas yang akan datang untuk ganti kelas-kelas yang miss. Kelas Alin mula jam 1PM sampai 4PM, setiap hari Isnin sampai Khamis. Jumaat tu jalan-jalan sekitar Busan, pihak universiti sponsor. hehe. Sabtu dan Ahad cuti la seperti biasa.

Dorm:
Alin tinggal kat tingkat 20, tingkat paling atas dan bilik paling hujung. Ada lif, ada kedai runcit, ada laundry room dan dobi, ada cafe. Bilik sangat best, share 2 orang satu bilik. Agak lengkap dengan katil, cupboard, meja setiap sorang. Bilik air dan balcony attached setiap bilik. Ada air-cond, fridge, hot water untuk mandi. Roommate alin Korean, baik orangnya, pun ambil sama course macam Alin.

Makan:
Makan kat sini 3 kali sehari. Takde makanan halal disediakan especially untuk kitorang Muslim students walaupun macam terngiang-ngiang hari tu dijanjikan oleh pihak UM. Tapi takpelah, makin lama makin boleh adapt dengan makanannya. Staf cafe juga prihatin, bila ditanya dia akan cakap lauk ni meat then dia akan tunjukkan kat ikan goreng yang diasingkan khas untuk kitorang. Jadi makan ikan goreng dengan nasi je lah. Nasi dia berkanji, sedap. Hehe. Lauk pun not bad la, kadang2 dia serve sup-sup yang boleh dimakan, yang takde daging apa-apa. Try makan apa yang boleh je.

Living cost:
Living cost di sini mahal, Mama Papa :( Semua benda in general start dengan 1000 won. 1000 won sama dengan RM 3. Alin sorry sangat tapi Alin dah terbelanja 100 USD yang Mama bagi dalam minggu pertama ni. Terlebih belanja sebab beli bantal dan adaptor segala. Bila datang sini, bantal, cadar, selimut takde. Nasib bawak cadar, selimut, sarung bantal segala. Terpaksa la beli bantal masa datang hari tu. Bantal harga 3800 won, dalam RM 12. Tulah, agak boros perbelanjaan Alin minggu pertama ini. Alin janji Alin akan berhati-hati dalam perbelanjaan untuk 4 minggu yang seterusnya. Hehe. Jangan risau, semua Alin belanja untuk diri Alin sendiri dan untuk makan kebanyakannya. Takde beli barang-barang remeh-temeh.

Aktiviti-aktiviti minggu pertama ni:
Alin tak berapa join budak2 lain kat sini. Alin cuma jalan dengan Nina, Nelly dengan Olivia. Kitorang semua ambil History of Europe, so semua takde kelas minggu pertama ini. Berjalan sakan. Nanti Alin upload gambar kat Facebook, Mama tengok dan tunjuk Papa ya? Hehe. Kat sini kerja berjalan kaki je memanjang. Tak pun naik train. Okay la perjalanan sini, orang2 Korea bukan jenis kacau orang. Cuma nak commnicate dengan dorang tu susah. Tapi ada kawan2 Korea yang duduk di dorm ni banyak membantu. Baik betul hehe.

Makanan halal:
Hari tu ade berjalan kat daerah lain, daerah Sasang. Kononnya ada jual makanan halal. Ingatkan makanan yang dah masak. Rupanya makanan2 kering dan basah yang kena masak dulu. Kalau ada dapur di dorm takpe jugak. Ada jumpa restoran India yang halal tapi mahal jugak. RM6 untuk sekeping naan. Rasanya boleh lagi sabar nak makan naan kat Malaysia. Hehe. Lepas tu, ada kawan bawak makan makanan Turki dekat dengan campus ni. Pun mahal juga la. Tapi sebab nak makan daging punya pasal, makan juga la. Takpe ya Mama? Hehe. Tak selalu la makan kat sini, mahal kot.

Ginger:
Sihat walafiat. Tido banyak.

Itu jelah kot. Nanti Alin e-mail lagi ya? Mama and Papa take care and I miss you and I love you.

-Alin

Mama's reply e-mail to me:

Tq Alin, macam ni la cerita panjang2, jadi mama tak la tertanya2 Nanti dah start class susah pulak nak becita.... Lama ma cari muka si ginger ni baru dapat!

Lol my mom <3

30 Days Song Challenge

2011-07-18T00:44:00.002+08:00

Ah, I finished the challenge! Well, it wasn't really challenging, I kinda expect a better list of song choices.

Nevertheless, this means I can get back to normal blogging. Eceh.

Anyway, just to update on my 4 months-break plan. So what have I been up to? Well, I am currently working part-time at Borders, The Gardens. I love my workplace, I love my colleagues, I love my job! This has been the most fun, satisfying, enjoyable job I have ever had to date. I love everything about my job! After all, books have always been my truest passion.

Aside from that, as Ginger has announced before, currently I am in Busan, South Korea. Well, wherever Ginger goes, I am going too. Lol. I am undergoing a summer school program which is a partnership between Universiti Malaya and Pukyong National University. It's quite fabulous so far though there were some not-so-fun stuff happening too. But as a whole, Busan has been an amazing experience.

So, my 4 months-break has been utterly enriching and rewarding time though it strayed so far from the initial plan. Told ya there are better things in store for me when my initial plan did not go through.

Alhamdulillah =)

Day 30 - Your Favorite Song At This Time Last Year

2011-07-17T23:07:00.004+08:00

Zaman-zaman baru nak berjinak-jinak dengan genre yang melibatkan David Guetta. Heh ;D

Day 29 - A Song From Your Childhood

2011-07-17T00:35:00.003+08:00

I was Baby Spice. Serius XD

Day 28 - A Song That Makes You Feel Guilty

2011-07-15T21:03:00.001+08:00

Day 27 - A Song That You Wish You Could Play

2011-07-14T22:29:00.005+08:00

You know, I wished I can play the violin.

When I was young, Papa had a Vanessa Mae compilation album. This song particularly was a favorite and I wished I can play the violin to this song.

Day 26 - A Song That You Can Play On An Instrument

2011-07-14T01:37:00.003+08:00

C C C C E D C C A G

C B C E G F D
D D D D A C B B A G

Music notes, in case anyone got boggled.

Back in primary school, I was in the school's brass band. I played a bunch of instruments and I played a bunch of songs, mostly patriotic and children's ones.

I cannot read music notes from a music sheet sadly. Back then, my music teacher wrote down the music notes in Roman letters and these Roman letters were already written on our musical instruments.

Until now, I can only remember that much of music notes though I played many songs. I was playing it on a xylophone if I'm not mistaken. Heh, good times~

Day 25 - A Song That Makes You Laugh

2011-07-12T21:53:00.003+08:00

Nyan nyan nyan nyan x 1800000000000 times

I don't know, but I think this qualifies as a song. Haha.

Initially, friends posted this video on FB and my first thought was "This is completely retarded."

Then, on one fine day, I decided to press the play button - and it unleashed something completely incomprehensible out of my mouth.

Laughs. Non-stop laughs. I was laughing from the beginning till end.

It still happens every time I play this song.

Day 24 - A Song That You Want To Play At Your Funeral

2011-07-11T23:28:00.003+08:00

So if we take a walk down,

The beach tonight,

I bet that we could light up the sky.

Well, isn't this a bit morbid?

Since it is not what we usually do when it comes to funerals, I never gave it a thought.

I put this up because it's nice to see someone who thinks about you even when you're gone.

Day 23 - A Song That You Want To Play At Your Wedding

2011-07-10T22:42:00.004+08:00

Later on in my destiny,

I see myself having your child,

I see myself being your wife,

And I see my whole future in your eyes.

Probably one of the most beautiful songs ever written.

Day 22 - A Song That You Listen To When You’re Sad

2011-07-10T00:30:00.004+08:00

The ladies love us,

When we pour shots.

They need an excuse,

To suck our c****.

I'm sure you'd be expecting a totally sad, sappy song. If I've done this few years back, I can give you playlists of saddest, sappiest songs ever written.

But life is pretty fabulous now. I learnt not to wallow in sadness as much and as long as before. Whenever I feel sad, I put on songs in the same genre as the song above to feel fab again ;)

Day 21 - A Song That You Listen To When You’re Happy

2011-07-08T23:40:00.003+08:00

Day day da-day day day day

Happy person became more happy. lol.

Day 20 - A Song That You Listen To When You’re Angry

2011-07-07T19:44:00.005+08:00

I'm the fox you've been waiting for.

Now this movie. This movie.

I was waiting for it to release in Malaysia. But then it was banned.

Never before I wanted to watch a movie so bad that I went through the hassle of downloading it, combining it then watched it. I wanted to watch this badly.

Damn it's hot. Kristen Stewart was hot in this. So freaking hot that I got confused for a while.

This movie made me want to live their lives and do immoral things.

Day 19 - A Song From Your Favorite Album

2011-07-06T19:18:00.002+08:00

If I was you, girl

It be me and you, girl

Would be no question teach you lessons in my room, girl.

I just love grammatically-incorrect and booty-appreciation songs.

Listened to the album at Shinsegae the other day and I instantly claimed 'Free Wired' to be a favourite album. I can't remember claiming any other album to hold such accolade.

'Girls on the Dance Floor' has sick intro beats!

Asian Proud!

Ginger Ada Important Announcement

2011-07-06T00:41:00.003+08:00

We interrupt the 30 Days Song Challenge (walaupun setelah ia tergendala selama 5 hari) to bring you this important announcement by the most adorable plush toy in the world, Ginger:

Ginger: Since 26th of June 2011 and until 3rd of August 2011, I am not in Malaysia. I am currently in....

KOREA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Whoop whoop!

It has been a week or so since I'm here. For updating blog purposes on Korea, I think I'm just gonna copy the e-mails I wrote to people back at home XD

Day 18 - A Song That You Wish You Heard On The Radio

2011-07-05T22:55:00.003+08:00

Every morning I watch her from behind,

but she don't know.

I pretend that I'm asleep

but I don't miss her show.

Now this song is so sexy. It needs to be abused on air - and it needs an official music video.

Day 17 - A Song That You Hear Often On The Radio

2011-06-29T23:29:00.003+08:00

I don't really listen to radio nowadays. I have my iPod. I am complete.

But whenever I do though, it seems like Taylor Swift is constantly on a loop at every single radio station.

We were both young, when I first saw you.

Day 16 - A Song That You Used To Love But Now Hate

2011-06-28T22:50:00.003+08:00

Seriously. Menyampah.

Day 15 - A Song That Describes You

2011-06-27T23:32:00.003+08:00

Strong enough to bear the children,

then get back to business.

Please, would you expect any lesser song than this to describe me?

Day 14 - A Song That No One Would Expect You To Love

2011-06-26T23:58:00.005+08:00

Kalau tinggi untung jadi bintang,

kalau rendah masih jadi intan.

Now this is my all-time favorite Siti Nurhaliza song! Gotta be proud of your culture, yo. XD

I'm feeling generous, here's another song you'd never expect me to love:

Baby you can do no wrong,

My money is yours,

Give you a little more because I love ya.

See, Justin Bieber knows how to please a female.

Haha! I am not a freaking Belieber. Ew, gross. This song was inspired by The Cardigans' "Love Fool" anyway, tu yang suka.

Eceh :P

Day 13 - A Song That Is A Guilty Pleasure

2011-06-25T08:44:00.002+08:00

I've come to stare,

I am a voyeur.

Rawr.

Day 12 - A Song From A Band You Hate

2011-06-24T21:17:00.002+08:00

Basically, I hate this song. Seems like every single peer of mine has this song and lament to it.

"Oh boo hoo, my one true love left me. I have no more love in this world. Nobody loves me. My life is not worthy. How can I live without love? Life is so cruel. God, take me away."

Really, morons? Duh.

Day 11 - A Song From Your Favorite Band

2011-06-23T23:41:00.002+08:00

You could call me crazy, man

Everyday I'm partying.

Now this MV contributed to my List of Things To Do Before I Turn 30 or Get Married (whichever comes first. lol.):

(1) Go to freaking Rio and freaking partayyyyy!!!

(2) Attend a Black Eyed Peas concert.

(3) Destroy hotel properties.

(4) Clock up frequent flyer miles, visit all continents and discover beautiful places.

(5) Attend a legit street party.

(6) Perform on a massive stage in front of a massive crowd.

(7) Party while David Guetta is DJing live.

(8) Go crazy and party till I drop!

Day 10 - A Song That Makes You Fall Asleep

2011-06-23T00:59:00.002+08:00

Hey Jude, refrain,

Don't carry the world upon your shoulders.

Clarification: No songs have ever made me fall asleep. Only movies, tv shows and educational textbooks have been capable of that.

I listen to this song when I need to feel calm, especially after being rained down by a storm (metaphorically-speaking). It sets as a reminder that things are possible and if they are not, then I don't have to beat myself up over it. I just have to stay calm and I don't know...fall asleep? XD

The Beatles FTW!

Day 09 - A Song That You Can Dance To

2011-06-21T23:40:00.003+08:00

Your daddy must've been a drug dealer,

Why?

Cos you dope.

Warning: Video is too hot for conservative/lame/pious people or those who simply refuse fun in their lives. Go watch the video of Day 08 instead.

You know what's the next fun thing to do after watching this video? Reading the comments. I love heterosexual men.

Day 08 - A Song That You Know All The Words To

2011-06-20T23:45:00.003+08:00

Probably, like, the easiest song to memorize. I prefer this remix.

Today's challenge is not challenging. Please, I cannot just choose ONE song, I can give you a freaking list. Haha.

Day 07 - A Song That Reminds You Of A Certain Event

2011-06-19T23:46:00.002+08:00

Come here rude boy, boy

Can you get it up?

Come here rude boy, boy

Is you big enough?

It was an awesome night out with friends. One particular guy friend however was being rude to me.

So guy friend, bila lagi you nak rude dengan I? Hmm?;D

Day 06 - A Song That Reminds You Of Somewhere

2011-06-18T23:59:00.002+08:00

This song reminds me of...Shah Alam. Surprised?

Simply because I listened to it a lot of times back in Shah Alam. That's the only reason. Nothing else, nothing I'm hiding. Bukannye aku clubbing ke ape kat Shah Alam tu (macam la ada clubs pun. heh.), tak pun bukannye aku disturbed ke ape (walaupun ada beberapa perkara disturbing yang berlaku kat Shah Alam dulu tu. ha ha.)

So no need to scrutinize over this song choice. It was just because I listened to it a lot of times back then in Shah Alam.

Day 05 - A Song That Reminds You Of Someone

2011-06-17T23:45:00.004+08:00

You're not like the others, futuristic lover,

Different DNA,

They don't understand you.

You're from a whole other world,

A different dimension,

You opened my eyes,

And I'm ready to go, lead me into the light.

It's like, after being not seriously interested in a guy for quite some time, he came along and this song was released. Ah, feels nice to be interested in someone, you know? Those girlish feelings *giggles gedikly*

But no worries, he is still one of us, a Homo sapiens. Just from...a whole other world, a different dimension ;)

Day 04 - A Song That Makes You Sad

2011-06-16T23:19:00.006+08:00

Pergilah rinduku, hilangkan dirimu,

Tak sanggup menanggung derita di kalbuku.

Jiwang. #kthxbai

Day 03 - A Song That Makes You Happy

2011-06-15T23:51:00.004+08:00

Can you hear us, with a smile on my face?

On a far different place, I'm delirious

Life can be pretty stressful especially when juggling studies and @. Add on with the strenuous walking all over the place to get from point A to point B then point C and on and on and on, all for studies and @.

Then one day, I stumbled upon this music video. Watched it, listened to it, loved it. We all would love to do that under intense stress, right?

But since I can't really do that in real life, all I did was put on my 4-inch platform, plug in my earphones, blast this song and sashay down the road with ultra-confidence. It felt fabulous ;D

Day 02 - Your Least Favorite Song

2011-06-14T23:48:00.003+08:00

Heh, this one is easy.

The hatred I have for this song is crystal clear. I hate it so much that I don't even want to post the song here.

Without trying to offend anybody, it is an Indonesian song. Two versions available, by a female singer and a male band. I menyampah sangat dengan lagu tu sampai I tak nak sebut nama tajuknya.

I support English and Malay songs only. Any other language I could not care less.

Dah.

Day 01 - Your Favorite Song

2011-06-13T23:54:00.004+08:00

Forgive him when his tongue lies through his brain,

Even after three times he betrays me.

I am so obsessed with this song that I had to listen to it like, a million times a day after the official music video was released. The last Gaga song I obsessed over was...'Poker Face'. Haha.

Now before you conservative lot throw red paint at my house/spam my chatbox with righteous quotes/blog about this post and tarnish my image, swallow a chill pill and digest the fact that this is Gaga we're talking about. She shocks.

She once confessed that when 'Just Dance' was released she did not receive as much attention thus she began shocking us with all these tactics as portrayed in 'Paparazzi', 'Alejandro' and 'Born This Way'.

So too bad lah she used Christianity as reference in this song. After all, a normal English name, oh I don't know, for example, 'Daniel', would not be as impactful and controversial as 'Judas'. But come on, it is a love song underneath all that religion and cultural references, infectious club-worthy beats and gorgeous people in the music video. The message is girl has a great guy by her side and yet she clings for the bad boy.

The music video is fabulous, won't you agree? Big bikes, black leather jackets with your name emblazoned in all its glory on the back, Jesus and his apostles not wearing anything underneath the black leather jackets, Judas is such a hot badass while "OMG is that the dude from Reaper as Jesus???" Yes, Rick Gonzales. Lady Gaga looks beautiful too in the video without all the weird make ups she loves putting on. Plus this video is way easier to understand than 'Born This Way'.

Still not convinced? Watch 1:25 - 1:27 repeatedly. It'll make you a convert.

By the way,

"I'm still in love with Judas. Apa macam?"

30 Days Song Challenge

2011-06-13T23:27:00.003+08:00

Ah, I've been seeing those "30 Hari Mencari Cinta" posts around other blogs. Something like Day 1 you post something you like, Day 2 you post something you don't like or something like that (am I making sense? lol). This goes on for 30 consecutive days, thus people cannot complain that you don't update your blog *cough cough* XD

But I found something better:

30 Days Song Challenge

*nosebleeds*

Totally my thing, music! Now most of you would know that my genre is pop and I love Top 40. I support commercialized music. And maybe to some of you, that is not cool.

Whatever, shoo to a dark corner to listen to your bad music.

When someone randomly hates you because of your music taste.

Challenge begins now!

4-Months Break

2011-05-20T03:48:00.002+08:00

For reference:

(1) Sacrifices

(2) Tentative Plan for 4-Months Break

IwanttotakespecialsemesterIwanttogoforexchangeIwanttogoforindustrialtrainingIwanttoworkparttimeIwanttogoforavacationIwanttobeapartofFESKUMIwanttogotosummerschoolIwanttobeaPembantuMahasiswa

I want to do everything!!!

Yet I only have four months break! Only FOUR MONTHS! ARGH!

Funny how I (and all of us) moaned about what were we supposed to do when we first heard of the four months break. Now I wish for more.

Plus, don't you hate it when everything happens at the same time? Like special sem and industrial training are going to be conducted for the first two months of the break. So you have to choose either one - and be bored to death for the remaining two months =_=

Urgh, just to update, the tentative tak jadi. After all, I already said it was a tentative and InsyaAllah jadi. So obviously Allah SWT has other plans for me ;D

Not telling just yet, takut tak jadi, malu uols XD

But whee whee, can't wait! InsyaAllah! Yosh!

Choir won 2nd place!

2011-04-15T00:12:00.006+08:00

Choir won second place!!

Alhamdulillah!

Our performance

Don't bother spotting me in this video. Sopranos were behind but you can clearly hear our fabulous voices ;D

Ah, it was pretty nerve-wrecking and exciting. I was so pumped up to perform on a huge and prestigious stage like the stage in DTC. During the rehearsal, I got a taste what it was like to perform on a legit stage.

Stage lights were at their brightest, flooding the stage, blinding my eyes, making the audience totally dark and unrecognizable. So this is what it felt like. No wonder artistes complained of not seeing anybody and not hearing the music. The PESKO (Pesta Ko-kurikulum) crew taped our mark and everything and there were tons of masking tapes on the stage, marking every single performance.

It was surreal and I love it.

I really gave it all for the performance. Who knows when's the next time I'm gonna perform again on a stage like this right? Too bad I wasn't there when they announced the result. Choir performance was at 11AM while the result was announced at 4PM. I felt lazy to wait the whole day at DTC watching all the performances. Plus, I even doubted whether we can hold on to the first place win like last semester. Ah well.

As always, I now miss singing every Wednesday. Back then, I complained of trudging up to Education faculty for my 5PM choir class while everybody else were going back to college, non-stop singing and moving to the same things, warming up while doing all these *cough* silly *cough* mouth movements and weird faces. Heh.

Spot the male singers. Haha. Our choir instructor is Mr Roy. You know, the voice behind 'Malaysiaku Gemilang'. Awesomeness.

Ah, I am going to miss having choir every week because it is nice to do something non-science related in a science-heavy course. After all, it is what I love to do: sing =)

We Love You Azie, We Do

2011-04-01T23:21:00.006+08:00

I was not having a good week. Bad feedbacks brought me down (I seriously need to learn to accept feedbacks gracefully and not be so affected by them), miscommunication at epic proportions (epic proportions because I was already affected by the bad feedbacks, thus anything said after the feedbacks were taken in a negative light) and feeling being left out by those I can call my gang.

Phew.

I then shut out everything and cried my eyes out to a bestie. In contrast with my former university, crying in my current university is such a rare occasion. Boleh kira sebelah tangan.The cry I had was pretty terrible, sebak macam ada orang mati.

Yelah, you put so much effort into something and people simply said you are not doing so much. Come on la, I am only one person. One, single person.

It was totally a "What do you want from me?" moment.

Anyway, towards the end of the week, the TMers conducted a sharing session in each department. Everyone in a department were gathered and we shared our thoughts throughout the term. We had to write down the good and the bad of our respective members.

Then the TMer would collect all our writings and read them out loud to the group. It was kinda sweet and embarrassing-in-a-good-way. It was like having a family meeting and you recollected all the memories of the term together.

I was so nervous when it was my turn. They saved the VP for last especially. Heh.

You know, from the bottom of my heart, I could feel that I have not done enough for my team members. I am not sure whether I have done my best as a leader to them and give them a complete @ experience. I have the capacity to give them so much more, a much more holistic experience, but I did not. I believe I failed them or at the very least, I am not a good VP to them.

That will haunt me to the grave.

But among the good things about me that they wrote were: patient with them (hahaha! I love my team members!) and one even wrote that without me, the team member would not be where that team member is right now. I have inspired that particular team member actually.

*cue waterworks*

Then they moved on to the bad things *cough cough*. One, I love to do things last minute. Two, I am not punctual.

I agreed with them whole-heartedly. Lol #epicphail

Nothing about temper though. Hahahahaha.

And the last bad thing about me they said was: "Azie never shared her problems with us. She always asked us about our problems or was there anything wrong but she never shared with us her problems."

I already nangis sikit this time.

Aww you guys, as a leader, I have to provide a sense of security to my team. How would you feel if I let you guys see my true expressions behind the laptop screen or the handphone screen? I must keep calm for you all. Tee hee.

My team then sang me this:

We love you, Azie, we do

We love you, Azie, we do,

Azie, we love you,

How much?

Thisssssssssssssssssssssssssss much!

With all the actions and everything. An @er should know how it goes. I memang ah nangis dah masa ni :')

As the meeting was ending, Boss came for his department session. I decided to bury the hatchet and just be in good terms again. Aih, I have the bestest Boss in the world. I don't know how many times I've hurt him and the team, ran away and came back again. They, and especially Boss, will always welcome me back with open arms.

I don't deserve these people :')

After the sharing session, I felt so light. It's nice to be appreciated, you know? You have no idea how comforting it is to hear nice things for a downtrodden soul.

Thank you :')

YVians 10/11

My team

9 Fun Facts About Me!

2011-03-30T00:09:00.014+08:00

Went to SEGi College in Kota Damansara for @ Induction. There was this ice-breaking game conducted where each person was given an option to pick how many sticky notes they want. I chose 9 sticky notes.

Apparently I have to write little known facts about myself on each sticky note I picked. So that means I had to write down 9 facts. It was a bit tough because I used up "I am an only child." and "I have had only one boyfriend/ex so far." too many times already. Haha.

Anyways, I eventually came up with nine facts about me and presenting below the nine facts about me. But I will separate them into two sections. Eceh.

Facts About Me That You Might Know Already

(1)

Can't help it. This fact is just too good. Not everyone can claim they are an only child. Kami anak tunggal ni rare species. Tee hee. Plus, I love the fact that since this fact is so uncommon, people will normally be extra intrigued and when I confessed it was me, there will be the usual intriguing questions like;
"Tak boring ke?"

Please.

(2)

Basically, the same argument as "I am an only child." applies here. It's a rare fact. But this also leads to the usual intriguing questions such as;

"So...how old are you actually?"

I don't entertain age-related questions. Next.

(3)

Boss read out this one. Instantly he knew it was me. Aww, Boss knew his team well :')

Basically those who are privileged to be introduced to this plush toy cat of mine are family, super close friends, my old blog readers and those I've had the privilege to spend a night or two with.

Yes, that was a lewd joke. Chill. What I meant was those who've I went to camps/conferences which involved bunking in will know this plush toy cat of mine. I don't go anywhere for long durations of time without her.

I'm feeling extra generous so I'm gonna post a picture of her.

Ginger - The Love of My Life.

The plush toy cat, not the sleeping guy :P

Anyway, Ginger is a she and she is a baby kitty. NOT a he and NOT a baby tiger!

(4)

This too is an interesting fact but it does not generate the same excitement as Fact (1) and

Fact (2). They will go like "Oh, you went to an all-girls school? Ohhh." Dah.

Ohh yes I did go to an all-girls school.

Facts About Me That I'm Pretty Sure You Don't Know

(5)

This fact is closely-related to Fact (4). This is interesting what. Which school has an orange-colored sports house? Most schools have only the four usual ones: blue, green, yellow, red. Boring. My school has six colors: the four usual ones, orange and....wait for it, brown.

(6)

Squeeze me, I had trouble spelling 'kindergarten'.

Just like how I have trouble spelling 'balloon' and 'committee'.

Oh well, I cannot be perfect all the time.

Anyway, every time someone asked about my English proficiency and how it all began, I always told them about me being enrolled in an Oxford Kindergarten in Dubai that sparked it all. Aww man, if Mama did not insist on me being in Oxford, I would have "lidah keras".

Ha ha.

(7)

I seriously can. Tak percaya?

(8)

This is closely-related to Fact (7).

Heh, for a girl my size, I am pretty flexible eh? ;D

Too bad no photo as proof because *coughs* I have less than stellar lower body. It will so ruin what a great photo of me splitting. lol.

Anyway, allow me to share what happened after someone read this particular fact of mine and I confessed it was me. Boss said, "Eh Azie, this is a true fact about yourself ah not something else."

Cis boss. Okay, I kasi demo amidst cheers. Ececeh.

*splits*

Boss and the guys in the room: "Ouch..." and grabbed their crotches.

Haha #epic

(9)

Nah, this could be a well-kept secret. First, I did taekwondo? Second, I have a green belt in it?

Yes yes.

That was fun. I guess I do have facts about me that people might not know of me. Nice to see their shocked faces. Haha. As Sheila puts it that day, "I learnt the most about Azie today." XD

All The Crazy Shit I Did Tonight

2011-03-25T19:08:00.007+08:00

(1) ECOB Senior Night

Basically it was a night to celebrate my seniors who are graduating soon.

He came over when I was struggling with my unicorn horn. Looked at my futile attempts then finally took matters into his own hands. He searched for a method to uphold the unicorn horn on my head, adjusted the strings and then told me to put it on. I put it on but asked him to hold the unicorn horn up while I tied the strings. I was bending and then he said, "Why are you bending?". I said, "Because I'm taller than you?" (take note that I was wearing my 4-inches wedges. So normally, he is taller than me). I then straightened up and found out he was still a few inches taller than me. "No, you're not," he said :) I was closing my eyes throughout tying the strings because...saya malu. Saya segan nak tengok dia depan mata saya. Tee hee tee hee. After I'm done, I said, "Thank you *insert his name here*."

I just heart it when a guy helps me put on something, you know, put on my shoes for me, tie the shoelaces for me, straightening the hem of my trousers so that leeches won't get into my pants, putting on my unicorn horn...tee hee <3

Bukan selalu ya saya nak malu depan seorang lelaki macam ni. Tee hee tee hee.

(2) Zouk 7th Anniversary

Happy Birthday, Zouk

I'm happy that they played all the songs I have ever wanted to dance to.

I'm happy that the trifecta of electro pop awesomeness: David Guetta, Taio Cruz and Pitbull was on rotation.

I don't need alcohol to do crazy things.

What's next? ZoukOut 2011 in Sg, bitches!

Gotta love being in my current uni for all the experiences ;D

2011-03-23T11:32:00.000+08:00

Suka is not Cinta

2011-03-23T11:03:00.002+08:00

1- Di hadapan orang yang kita cinta, hati kita akan
berdegup kencang. Tapi di hadapan orang yang kita
suka, hati kita akan gembira.

2- Di hadapan orang yang kita cinta, musim
sentiasa berbunga-bunga. Di depan orang yang kita
suka, musim itu cuma berangin sahaja.

3- Jikalau kita lihat di dalam mata orang yang
kita cinta, kita akan kaku. Tapi jika kita melihat
ke dalam mata orang yang kita suka, kita akan
tersenyum.

4- Di depan orang yang kita cinta, kita menjadi
malu. Di depan orang yg kita suka, kita akan
tunjukkan imej yang sebenar.

5- Di depan orang yang kita cinta, lidah kelu untuk
berkata-kata. Di depan orang yang kita suka, kita
akan bebas berkata apa saja.

6- Kita tidak akan merenung mata orang yang kita
cinta. Tapi kita akan selalu merenung mata orang
yang kita suka.

If according this, it's good to know I don't cinta him anymore. Just suka.

In fact, I cinta someone else.

Ehehehe, geds. Lariiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.

2011-03-21T00:52:00.001+08:00

Up Yours, Everyone

2011-03-18T11:41:00.002+08:00

You already have a bad reputation, why not just continue that #winning streak?

The furious me has been suppressed for so long. It wants to come out and just screw everything, and everyone, so badly. By screw, it's not a good thing. I don't wanna be plagued by STD.

Ew.

This goes out to everything and everyone, nothing is exclusive.

Third year, Y U NO COME ANY FASTER?

Roar.

2011-03-14T02:44:00.003+08:00

It cannot get anymore...interesting than this.

Ai Izz Itch To Danz

2011-03-14T02:00:00.002+08:00

Hinting to the most awesome bunch of people that I am privileged to be a part of.

It's March already ;)

#iheartmalaysia

2011-03-14T01:09:00.007+08:00

Now this post is wayyyyy overdue. But since I have it on my desktop, might as well publish it.

Remember the Suzuki Cup 2010? The one where Malaysia pwned Indonesia. The one where Malaysians use super-cool lasers to distract Indonesian goalkeeper (yeah right *rolls eyes*). The one where Malaysians had to train in the hotel compound and travel in armored trucks just because Indonesians are hostile to them (damn right.) The one where it made KFCM (and girlfriend. sheesh.) a household name.

NO I AM NOT A FOOTBALL FAN! I AM A PATRIOTIC MALAYSIAN!

There I was fending off haters on Twitter after Malaysia won in Bukit Jalil. I was not alone, seems like the whole of tech-savvy, hot-blooded Malaysians were out fending #MalaysiaBoleh. Yesza, Malaysians all out when it comes to Trending Topics on Twitter! The best example of unity indeed.

So I was tweeting and tweeting and tweeting using the one-too many hash tags about Malaysia. One of it was:

I never knew that particular tweet was pretty impactful until the national newspaper, The Star quoted me.

For the whole article, click http://me.lt/4XAI

WAHHHHHHHHHHH~!

They bersusah-payah je translated my partial Malay tweet and killed the drama by not printing the F word. Hahaha.

Ah, my 5 secs of fame. I didn't even notice it. Thanks @zalvert for tweeting it and posting it on his FB wall. Bangga betul ni. Lol. Thanks to Ruth for noticing it in the newspaper. I can't believe I didn't buy that particular The Star =__=

NO I AM NOT A FOOTBALL FAN! I AM A PATRIOTIC MALAYSIAN!

Just in case someone missed it the first time and thinks I am a fan. Ew.

T-shirt tulis tulis

2011-03-10T04:09:00.004+08:00

"You cannot imagine the immensity of the fuck I do not give."

I want to get this printed on a tee and proceed to wear it to one of my classes.

I am so sick of lecturers who are just out to screw their students.

When I am quiet and seemed like I let you trample me over, let it be known that I am just avoiding myself from laying the smackdown on you and give you what you deserve including my many theories on why you are such a bitch to me (one of it includes you not being satisfied enough.)

You know, I almost got sued once because of my versatile language.

Sheesh *rolls my beautiful eyes*

2011-03-06T17:34:00.000+08:00

Dance with me? :D

2011-03-06T00:33:00.002+08:00

THE WORST FEELINGS

crying yourself to sleep
being extremely happy, then someone ruins it
having a good day, then getting bad news
having my period on a special day
feeling sick for the whole week
being ignored
being alone, although you have your friends around you
having your plans ruined
discovering the person you love, loves someone else
someone falling out of love, with you
discovering the person you love can’t love you back.

Except for point 4 and 5, I am amazed to find out that I was going through all of the above in mere hours.

2011-03-05T23:29:00.004+08:00

Evan and Jaron- Crazy for this girl

Aww, I remember being so in love with this song back in secondary school. Such a nice surprise to hear it blasting at the mall just now.

It warms the heart :')

On a side note,

"People, stop wasting your energy to hurt me. You will never break me, you will only make me stronger."

-Azira Azreen

Tentative Plan For 4-Months Break

2011-03-02T17:04:00.004+08:00

16th May - 11th July --> Practical Training. Most desired place: Petrosains.

19th July - 22nd July --> Vacation. Confirmed place: Kuching, Sarawak.

25th July - 5th September --> AIESEC Exchange. Most desired place: Greece.

InsyaAllah.

This is my tentative plan. It is subject to change.

Now that we got that clear, let's say everything goes through perfectly as planned....

ZOMG MY 4 MONTHS BREAK IS PACKED TO THE BRIM!!!!

Sampai terbabas lagi tu masuk new term =__=

Whee whee~

So, what is your plan and where will you be?

2011-02-22T19:42:00.000+08:00

I miss you.

Come back to Malaysia?

2011-02-13T21:19:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY~!!!

Girly Girl V.2

2011-02-12T19:20:00.004+08:00

It was probably not a big deal for you, but it was kind of a big deal for me.

I still remember the way you fumbled to pull out your right Apple earphone in an attempt to make small talk/say hi to me - and I walked away so fast instead.

Trust me, I regretted not making vocal contact and was mentally-kicking myself. Even until now. I was late for class that day actually.

Nevertheless, I was elated after bumping into you. You look super-cute as always.

That smile.

Now before you freaked out over a potential stalker in me, I'll let you know that I'm the type who crushes from afar. So you don't have to worry about your car or anything like that :P

Aku Sebuah Beg Tangan

2011-02-05T21:19:00.006+08:00

I was sitting there idly, along my similar-looking siblings, staring at the people walking in front of us. "Somebody buy me, please?" I thought to myself.

Then one day, came two people into the store and my future owner picked me up. "Oh this is nice!" she said to the person standing next to her. Then she puts me down. I was like, "Wutttttt?" They walked around the store and when they came back to me again, the other person coaxed my future owner about getting me. "Are you sure you don't want it? Take it, I'll buy it for you." Well, my future owner is the type who does not like to burden anyone (unless it's her parents) especially when it comes to money, but since the other person wanted to get it for her, she said okay.

My future owner even took a photo of me being bought by the other person at the cashier. Lolz. After I was bought, we three left the store by squatting under the shop shutters since the shop was closing for the day. Double lolz.

My now owner was happy. She was so happy with me and loved me too much that she kept me in the fabric pouch more than she took me out to be used. Gah, the perks of being a gift, you will be loved too much until you cannot really fulfill the objective you were made in the first place.

Anyway, after being kept for safekeeping and the rare occasions I was brought out, something terrible happened. So terrible that I was kept for safekeeping and stashed away, never to see daylight again.

Maybe it was too painful for my owner to look at me again.

But today, I was brought out of my fabric bag in haste. Apparently my owner wanted a bag that can match her outfit for her bestie's engagement. As I was being pulled out, my owner saw my condition.

She was devastated. Apparently I have so much cracks on my surface and I was peeling off.

My owner looked at me thoroughly in the car, she went through all the cracks and ran through the gaps where my surface fell off. I was even peeling off when she caressed me.

I don't know whether her heart broke seeing me in such a bad condition, but there was a little bit of pain in her eyes. She felt poignant seeing me and she felt sad seeing me in such condition. I think there was more than just me being in bad condition. I don't know.

Now I am back in my fabric pouch. But this time, my owner felt that I need all the rest and safety. Occasionally, I will be taken out so that my owner can check on me. I think when she checks on me, there is more than just that.

P/S - Tajuk nak Darjah 1 habis XD

Single-Awareness Day

2011-02-05T08:12:00.004+08:00

Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!

Ain't that super-adorable that you just wanna puke glitters and stars?

Just listening to the same music with your man.

Cue: rain of hearts and unicorns.

But it will be a bummer if you have to listen to his bad taste in music.

Or worst, if you guys split up. Ain't that a bitch?

"We don't need a splitter. We split. Like, literally."

2011-02-03T16:47:00.002+08:00

"If you only knew your own worth, young lady. Then maybe men would know it too." - @JayPoetry

"You know why I don't have horny jerks surrounding me? Because I am not cheap." -Azira Azreen

2011-01-30T16:00:00.001+08:00

Freedom means...

..nothing but missing you.

All I Ever Wanted

2011-01-26T23:47:00.005+08:00

The Past

I was in the school choir back in secondary school. I was placed under Soprano section.

***

An intern once asked me this,

"Azira, do you sing?"

"Umm, I can karaoke quite well. Why?"

"Because you can change your voice from very high to very low so quickly."

"Oh? Hahah."

The Present

It was the third choir class for the semester. The instructor picked out the songs we are going to sing at the Festival Ko-k.

'Warisan' by Sudirman and 'Blue Suede Shoes' by Elvis Presley.

I have to admit that I was a bit disappointed with the choice of songs. 'Warisan' was my PLKN song so I am kind of saturated with it - and I never heard of 'Blue Suede Shoes' actually, so obviously it was not 'Top 40'.

So, no Glee.

Not so la.

The arrangement for 'Warisan' was different so it was a bit awesome. 'Blue Suede Shoes' was not bad. Groovy, baby~

Anyway, it was the day when we were segregated in accordance to our voice types. You know, soprano, alto etc etc.

Fuh, I have been waiting for this day for so long! Time to really test my voice and to see whether I am really a Soprano or was it just a fad back in school.

By this time you should know that I wanted to be under the Soprano section so badly. The instructor asked all the girls to sing a few lines from 'Warisan' individually. As I was sitting at the back, the wait was nerve-wrecking.

I was a bit ADD. Restless. Hands shook slightly. Clenched and unclenched my fingers. Laughed nervously and supportively along with the class. Took gulps of water to avoid croaking. Tested my singing. Listened to voices being graded 'Soprano', listened to voices being graded 'alto'. Confidence level fluctuating throughout the whole thing.

So I wanted to be a Soprano so badly. When I really want something so very badly, I tend to get extremely nervous especially since I will not settle for second best.

Then, it was time.

My turn.

Sang the first line of 'Warisan'.

Instructor: "Okay, S."

S = Soprano

Okay, I honestly felt I flopped. I was a teeny bit surprised when he said that.

Extreme giddiness quickly replaced the surprised feeling. Heh. WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~!!!

Now I really have to take choir very, very seriously.

I must gym religiously to increase my stamina so that I can hold on to long notes.

I must take care of my voice and drink a lot of plain water to avoid the nightmare of having a hoarse voice.

I must also practice hitting high notes to avoid my voice cracking up when reaching high notes.

Wah, semangat =D

Anyway, we're going to perform at the prestigious DTC during Festival Ko-k. Soooooo excited to perform at DTC! Jemput datang everyone! =D

InsyaAllah, grad tahun depan di sini.

Can't wait!

Be Responsible For Your Opportunity

2011-01-13T02:04:00.005+08:00

Disclaimer: I am not trying to degrade anybody. I bukan la nak macam bagus. I do accept the fact that I am not the world's best singer. If I had to choose in Glee, my vocal prowess ala-ala:

Muhasabah diri sikit, bermimpi la kalau nak suara macam Rachel Berry

"You cannot sing, you can karaoke." - Simon Cowell

Disclaimer 2: I do not mean to slander anybody. This is more like a disappointment. I guess after spending time with @, I have learnt to value an opportunity. To see certain people not being serious when everyone else is dead serious about something is a major letdown.

Real story:

I chose 'Koir' as my Ko-k. From the database, 'Koir' is opened to 40 students only. So after the third year students finished registering their courses, I asked Nina to register me for 'Koir' as soon as the course registration for second year students is opened because I had a final paper to sit on that day.

I told Nina "Ape2 pun, register koir dulu." Yes, I finally learnt how to prioritize.

After my paper was done, I went back to check on my course registration and checked the database again. The only spot left for 'Koir' was...one. Walaweh, thank you, Nina!

So from final exams to sem break to conference to new semester, I imagined great things about 'Koir'.

We're gonna do Glee,

Yang ni untuk mid-sem performance

Yang ni of course la untuk Festival Pendidikan Kokurikulum

(to signal the official end to all Ko-k subjects. A competition too actually. 'Koir' won first last sem. Fuh, pressure!)

Santana's part from 0:42 sudah praktis banyak kali. Cheh cheh~

we're gonna have sing-offs between guys and girls during choir practices,

Rachel Berry's last note pernah diattempt: Kerap tak sampai, kadang-kadang separa sampai, jarang sungguh sampai.

Mike Chang!!!!!!!!!!!!! *nosebleeds*

we're gonna learn on how to be real performer, we're gonna dance and sing without losing our breaths, we're gonna argue what kind of songs to sing,

I am going to be amazed by a guy's voice,

I teared up at this. Oh sappy me.

~~..and I am gonna finally get a boyfriend who can sing.~~

I kinda miss having that feeling of being amazed by someone and just be in awe of him. You know, like, you have your eyes only for him, stealing shy glances, giving shy smiles...

Okay, sudah terkeluar topik! XD

Anyway, when sem started, I eagerly went to the first class. Everybody was there...except for the instructor =__= gah, penat je jalan.

So for the second class, the instructor showed up but I showed up a little bit late. Heh. He had great voice =)

He asked everyone to introduce themselves and then sing a snippet from a song of our choice.

Like, whoa!

Do excuse the first girl that was called up, she was caught off guard, so she sang...'Negaraku'.

No kidding.

So the rest of us should at least be prepared with something, right? I mean, you saw what the first girl went through.

But no.

A few sang 'Happy Birthday' - and not even like, when Marilyn Monroe sang it to JFK. One sang, no, speed-sang the song while the other sang it in German. Gotta give props to the girl singing in German.

A few more attempted 'Negaraku'. There was even one who forgot the lyrics. 'Tis okay, nervous kot.

But the ones who actually said 'No' and did not sing tu yang buat I meletup betul. You signed up for choir and you don't wanna sing?? I know it was just the start, 'main-main' but come on! Take things seriously lah. There were other people who took this seriously (including me) and here you are being nonchalant and have this devil-may-care attitude. Kalau suara sedap takpe gak.

Hoho, bitchy bitchy.

No lah, I don't mean to degrade, I tak bagus I tau. My point is, there could have been other people who wanted this more than yourselves and here you are, fooling around. 40 people got this opportunity and a few of them did not take it seriously. Who knows, a few students are rolling in their beds singing Glee songs because they did not get 'Koir'.

I know I would.

To those who said they are not prepared, come on, you signed up for choir. You SHOULD be prepared with a song or two. It is no brainer, really. Me for example, melalak-lalak Glee songs just in case kena nyanyi kat depan. Heh.

Fuh fuh. Look, I am stressing this again, I do not mean to insult. I am a tad disappointed. If you signed up just because your friends signed up for it too, then I'll be damned. ~~I could've met my future husband in this class.~~ There could have been other people who are actually interested in 'Koir' out there.

You chose this opportunity, it is only apt that you be responsible to live up to it. You took an opportunity from another person who would've deserved it much better than you. It is only noble to at least try to live up to it.

Haha, I memang kalau hardcore to something, memang hardcore habis.

Bah. 12 more weeks to go. I am sure there would be improvements. The instructor said he is gonna be strict with us. Oh yeah~

Oh? What song did I sing?

Wanted to attempt any 'Glee' songs but then it will be too cliché.

'Grenade' pun tetiba hari ni tak sampai. Cis.

Fail safe. 'Aku Cinta Padamu'. ;)

Aku Benci Bila Usaha Aku Sia-Sia

2011-01-10T01:13:00.003+08:00

Applies to relationships too, no?

2011-01-08T16:53:00.009+08:00

I love it when he who loves me stares at me while I am prepping myself. I love the feeling of being appreciated.

~P~ Alert!

2011-01-08T14:50:00.000+08:00

2010-12-24T03:17:00.004+08:00

That's why saya bahagia dgn dia. I can just say fuck him and we'll laugh about it. Hahahahaha.

Banyak benda nak blog about ni. True to Azie's style, 'Save As Draft' ;)

I Pretended To Not Know

2010-12-13T02:38:00.002+08:00

I know things.

But I just pretend that I don't.

So never, ever underestimate me.

You know,

I am not letting this happen again.

This:

Losing straight guys because of gays.

I mean, it's not worth it.

NOT WORTH IT, SIAL.

So everybody has skeletons in their closets. I do too. I am not proud of it. I am ashamed of those mistakes. Mistakes made by a very...immature me.

But I know of yours (may apply to more than one person) too. So jangan berani sangat.

Perbualan Di Waktu Malam

2010-12-12T03:54:00.001+08:00

Rakan lama: Kau memang betul-betul suka kat dia eh?

Aku: Ya :(

Bust Your Windows

2010-12-08T04:17:00.002+08:00

I bust the windows of your car,
Ad no it didn't mend my broken heart,
I probably always have these ugly scars,
But right now I don't care about that part.

You see you can't just play with people's feelings,
Tell them you love them and don't mean it.

Quoting The Whole Song

2010-12-07T02:44:00.002+08:00

Having one of those pesky low peaks in my life.

I miss you. A little bit more than the usual.

2010-12-04T22:20:00.001+08:00

The Kurt to my Mercedes.

Nothing more, nothing less.

I Hope This Haunts You

2010-12-01T01:08:00.002+08:00

Best Friends Forever

2010-11-29T02:57:00.006+08:00

There was the first best friend ever in primary school.

Drifted apart.

Then, a bestest best friend in secondary school that you 'die die' said you two will stay friends until you two are grandmothers. Going through love lives, marriages, kids and old age together. Promises were made regarding future meet ups for power lunches, squeezing dates amidst busy schedules, attending each other's weddings, setting up play dates with each other's kids and hanging out at each other's respective homes.

Fell out due to a seemingly silly thing. Currently giving each other the longest silent treatment to date.

University. Best friend. A roller-coaster ride. Looking out for each other. Sticking up for each other. Sticking together through great and worst times - through scandals, dramas, gossips, phases and broken hearts.

In all honesty, it is a bit toxic. Have been contemplating about its future.

I can only wish for a friendship like theirs. Do you have a friend that is willing to face death for you?

2 Hours Wait = 4 Preview Passes

2010-11-19T12:43:00.009+08:00

Hitz.fm is in the midst of giving away preview passes to The Social Network this week, right?

So yours truly, who is mad for Facebook and Justin Timberlake, waited for the cues to call.

First attempt

Was it last Tuesday or last Wednesday? What I remembered, it was a dark afternoon with thunders and lightnings crackling around the house. I, with my trusty laptop, braved through the horrid weather and listened to Hitz.fm via their website. I started waiting at 2PM. The Redial button on the house phone was already pre-dialled with 9543 3311. At 3PM i got flustered already. It's okay, we must brave on through terrible weather and even terrible music, lappy!

At about ten mins to 4PM, the cue to call came on air. I pressed the Redial button.

Engaged.

T___________T

Redial again.

Engaged.

T___________T

I gave up.

Tsk. That was quick. I just wasted two hours of my time. All I got was a back pain.

Second attempt

Today. Oh glorious today.

I was being productive by not sleeping for almost 12 hours.

Since I Liked Hitz.FM on FB, I saw the post on the question for the cue to call:

Haha, waddaya know?

So I waited, from 10AM till 12PM. Guys, anytime Hitz.fm said the cue to call is coming right up, it means TWO FRIKKIN' HOURS LATER =___=

Handphone at the side.

03 9543 3311 has of course been pre-dialled.

Listened to Hitz.fm via website again.

Replied @ e-mails.

Facebook-ed.

Twitter-ed.

Listened to good music (Travie McCoy, Katy Perry etc.)

Listened to bad music (Orianthi's 'According To You', and those loud bands that played noise etc.)

Listened to the DJ babbling, saying the cue to call is coming in the next hour. (so motif I tunggu the first hour? =___=)

Listened to more good music.

YouTube-d.

Listened to ads on the radio.

Finally...

*CUE TO CALL*

Pressed the Green button on handphone.

*KANCHEONG KANCHEONG*

Te net net, te net net...

WTF =____________=

You know, the dial tone bila coverage hilang.

WHY CELCOM WHY OF ALL TIMES?????????????????

Dah nak nangis dah nak nangis dah nak nangis (dalam kepala berfikir, 'Penat je tunggu 2 jam.')

Berlari ke telefon rumah.

Dial 9543 3311.

Engaged.

SOBS.

Redialled.

Engaged.

SOBS SOBS.

Redialled.

Dial tone.

*terkejut besar*

*tunggu*

Pergh, lama gila DJ nak angkat. "Dah ada la ni first caller through." hati berkata :'(

*dah nak give up ni, dah nak letak*

*ada orang angkat telefon*

"Hi, can I have your IC number?"

0_0 0_0 0_0

*nervous ni nak bagi ke tak, tapi bagi je. bagi nama jugak*

"Okay Azira, you're the first caller through."

*jantung berhenti berdegup*

*satu badan sejuk*

SCREAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

I didn't la of course, nanti pekak seMalaya dengar I jerit.

"So Azira, did you see the question posted on our site? What was it?"

"What was the sound made when the Facebook Chat is on?"

(maaf la bila nervous, grammar sumer hancus, Manglish habis)

"So what is the sound like?"

"Uh, Pop?"

"Can you demonstrate how is the sound like?"

*giggly giggly* "Uh, I dunno...pop pop?" *geds*

(So I was nervous+excited, bukan selalu aku geds)

"Hahaha, its like putttttttttttttttttt."

"Yeah, yeah."

"Okay, you just won 4 preview passes to The Social Network screening this Monday at GSC Mid Valley Megamall!"

YAY YAY YAY!!

(the conversation above was somewhat like that la, I did not remember specifically how it went)

I rushed to lappy while screaming all the way and everything. Haha.

Ah, diyam kamoo!

Nina's reaction =)

But the mother of all reactions goes to:

Elina Lynn

Haha, that was nice. This marks the third time I won something from calling Hitz.FM. First was RM200 while second was a special screening to Mean Girls (I took beloved Naji). So to those of you out there:

PERSEVERE!

USAHA TANGGA KEJAYAAN.

Bila Lagu Ni Nak Keluar Kat Red Box?

2010-11-19T01:57:00.003+08:00

Party in the USA

2010-11-17T04:04:00.004+08:00

So, how Asian are you?

[x] Both of your parents are from Asia

[ ] You use the term “Azn”

[x] You think DDR is fun

[ ] You’ve watched lots of anime

[ ] You like Korean dramas

[ ] You have stuff hanging on your phone

[ ] Your parents want you to marry within your own race

[x] You drink lemon tea

So Far: 3

[ ] You style your hair, NOT with gel (try to! but never stays :( )

[x] You have a meebo / myspace / friendster / facebook

[x] You speak languages other than English

[ ] Your parents are strict

[x]Your parents have high expectations of you

[ ] You always get A’s/B’s on your report (not necessarily.... haha but good to put this ;) )

[x] You do Chemistry/Biology/Physics/Accounting

[ ] You know your multiplication table

[x] You play badminton or table tennis

[x] You’ve seen the Asian version The Ring and/or The Grudge

So Far: 9

[x] You own an Asian car

[ ] You’re not the only child

[ ] You’ve gotten little red envelopes around February

[x] You know the difference between kung fu, karate and tae kwon do.

[ ] ( girl ) You prefer white guys over asian guys ( guy ) You prefer asian girls

[ ] Your mother tries to bargain even though the product is already discounted (she goes for sales)

[ ] You can do the rubiks cube

[ ] You play video games

So Far: 11

[x] Every time you’re going out, your parents ask you where you’re going and what time you’ll be home

[x] You have karaoke at home

[x] You know BoA/Gazette/Ayumi Hamasaki/Gackt

[ ] You’ve been to a LAN more than 3 times

[ ] You have incense sticks in your house

[ ] You own a gaming console

[ ] You play a musical instrument

[ ] You get nothing if you do well in school

So Far: 14

[ ] Your parents won’t let you go out if you have school the next day

[x] You have Asian Songs on your computer or iPod

[x] You don’t like football

[ ] You have a curfew

[ ] You know what ulzzang/tb means

[ ] You know what purikura is

[x] You like bubble tea

[ ] Your parents bought you shoes many sizes too big so you can “grow into it” and wear it for years to come

[ ] You’ve played final fantasy

[ ] You believe in fortune cookies

So Far: 17

[ ] You get mostly “No“‘s when you ask your parents for permission for something

[ ] You’ve heard the song “Got rice?”

[x] You have a tutor

[x] You’ve had Pockys or Yan Yan before

[ ] When you seek for your mother’s permission she replies “Ask your dad”

MY RESULT: 19

( 1-10= Southerner)(11-20= American)(20-30= European)(31-40= Azn Boy or Girl)(41-50= Super Azn Boy or Girl)

OMG, I refused to believe that I am secretly American!

But I just used the term OMG.

Should have used Oh Mak Kau.

Please La Get Back Together :'(

2010-11-16T02:16:00.003+08:00

Dengar tak apa aku cakap ni @jtimberlake & @britneyspears??

Aww, sobs :'(

To wish @TravieMcCoy and @katyperry back together seems mean.

But they were so cute together :(

Fell For It

2010-11-13T03:47:00.005+08:00

Him: Hey, do you have a raisin?
Her: No, I don't.
Him: How about a date then?

GENIUS!

The only pick-up line that worked for me and I did not roll my eyes in disgust.

Like to those lame pick-up lines: do-you-have-the-time, did-you-fall-from-heaven, your-dad-put-the-stars-in-your-eyes, heaven-missing-an-angel...

Urgh *roll eyes sampai nampak otak*

Caution, the raisin pick-up line might not work if:

(1) Girl is unaware of the ambiguousness of the word 'date'

which might lead to "I don't have a date either." or "I don't eat dates." or worst, "What is a date?"

(2) Girl actually HAS a raisin

which might lead to the guy coaxing the girl to say 'No' so that he can deliver the ultimatum

(3) Girl naively thinks of 'date' as the fruit

this differs from point (1) because I am this kind of a girl (and I am aware of how ambiguous the word 'date' can be). I will go "I don't have a date either. Dates and raisins tak sedap."

Hee~

What Is The Female Version Of Bromance?

2010-11-10T01:15:00.008+08:00

Bromance.

So cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

So endearinggggggggggggggggggggggg!

No Elina, Sismance does not cut it.

Rewatching Supernatural. I forgot how much I loved the show and how much I loved these two actors :')

Broad chest.

*drools*

My goodness, their chests are so broad, I can draw the world map on it.

Ten Reasons To Drool Over Jensen Ackles

Ten Reasons To Drool Over Jared Padalecki

You know you wanna click them links ;)

You know you want to watch this. WATCH THIS! XD

I will watch 7:29 every time I felt shitty. Haha.

Ohemgee! *melts into a puddle of glitters and stars*

2010-11-06T00:37:00.000+08:00

You never realize

how much you like someone

until you watch them

like someone else.

2010-11-02T20:35:00.005+08:00

This song is so...romantic.

The MV too. Don't tell me you never wished that you were dead and be able to see who would come to your funeral and miss you the most.

Motivation: Black thigh-high leather boots. Yums.

White dress. Beach.

Aih, why isn't there any natural beach in KL?

Suddenly the normal digital camera seems more attractive than a chunky DSLR.

One thing you should know : Ever since I met you, no one else is worth thinking about except you.

@SimpleLoveTweet

No More Façade

2010-11-01T00:41:00.007+08:00

"I am constantly amazed by how certain girls can morph into something completely abnormal whenever there is a presence of testosterone."

-Azira Azreen

I am WYSIWYG. I do not put up a show.

But I can relate to those girls in my own quote. When you want to make a good first impression or when you like a new guy, you tend to cover up your bad traits and enhance your good qualities. But unlike those girls, I do not do things extremely.

At the very least, I'll tone down the volume of my laugh, I don't curse and I keep my corrupted thoughts to myself.

Alas, when the guy is no longer available, I'll let loose and be myself again. An instant relief too, not being your true self is a real hard work.

It is November 2010 now. Two more months, I will be 24. Dudeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, gotta live life! Being tied down is not funneth!

I wanna go dancing! Wheeee~

College mates already billed me as The Sober One, the one driving all the drunkards back home. LOL.

"Don’t try and perfect yourself for one person. Wait for the one who loves your imperfections."

@SimpleLoveTweet

Rasa Macam Nak...

2010-10-29T03:43:00.005+08:00

Saw you from a distance
Saw you from a stage
Something 'bout the look in your eyes
Something 'bout your beautiful face
In a sea of people
There is only you

Wah bukan selalu aku nak quote Archuleta, ape tah lagi aku ni seorang Glambert.

So, dia is into someone else.

...

Woe.

Lek lu, kata hati lu kuat. Macam la ni lu punya first time kena crushed.

Woe.

Aku sampai letak FB profile dia sebagai Favourite kat app 'Facebook for iPhone' aku (walaupun aku hanya menggunakan iPod touch). Okay, boleh delete sekarang Favourite itu, kang tak pasal ada sharp increase of interest in my iPod. Ececeh.

Boleh berhenti stalk dia sekarang.

Cis, ape nangis nangis sebab lelaki ni? Bukan putus cinta.

*puts on 'I Kissed A Girl'. The Rock Remix*

Ya, we should have more guys who are of 'you and me' rather than guys who are of 'there is no us. there is just you and me.'

2010-10-27T03:14:00.001+08:00

Being Girly Girl

2010-10-24T01:30:00.003+08:00

azira (10/23/2010 11:38:56 PM): someone's online

azira (10/23/2010 11:38:58 PM): hahaha

azira (10/23/2010 11:39:03 PM): TEMPTING GILA

Miss E. (10/23/2010 11:39:06 PM): GI LA CAKAP

azira (10/23/2010 11:41:07 PM): TAK TAU NAK CAKAP APA

azira (10/23/2010 11:41:08 PM): hahaha

Miss E. (10/23/2010 11:42:06 PM): hey

Miss E. (10/23/2010 11:42:09 PM): how's your day

Miss E. (10/23/2010 11:42:15 PM): =_=

azira (10/23/2010 11:45:18 PM): wtf

azira (10/23/2010 11:45:20 PM): random sangat

Wah, Azie yang can be quite the chatterbox ni pun can be rendered speechless?

Hebat awak ;)

My Tumblr Holds My Dark Thoughts

2010-10-22T17:56:00.004+08:00

Sometimes I wonder,

“Tak rasa bersalah ke dia broke my heart?”

POW!

Tak payah bersedih lagi.

Last Harry Potter! SOBS.

My Frank Mother

2010-10-21T10:30:00.001+08:00

Kalau suka lelaki lain, jangan menggatal dengan lelaki lain.

-Mama

#kthxbai T______T

2010-10-19T23:33:00.001+08:00

I just cannot fathom how good-looking you are.

And that smile.

Ah~

2010-10-17T16:26:00.001+08:00

Favourite pastime that I miss doing:

Listening to a heart beat

2010-10-12T18:01:00.002+08:00

Quotes

Never Failed...

2010-10-11T23:29:00.006+08:00

- to make me laugh

- to make me snort

- to make me tear up

- to make me short of breath

- to make me ROTFLOL

Author's note: I am NOT in this photo XD

When Mere Words Fail

2010-10-10T00:51:00.003+08:00

Fairy Tale

2010-10-08T01:31:00.003+08:00

A happy chaos.

A wild crowd.

Flashing lights.

Loud beats.

Girl seeked for guy.

Spotted guy at the backstage.

Guy looked extremely busy. After all, orang kuat kan?

Girl beckoned to the guy for him to come over.

The guy saw the girl, smiled, dropped everything and ran towards the girl.

Conversation ensued, big smiles etched on each other's faces.

Girl returned to her group of friends. Guy returned to his duties.

Muka saya ganas, tapi dalam hati ada taman.

Until He Is In A Relationship...

2010-10-06T23:11:00.004+08:00

...then only I'll stop writing about him.

Gosh, I've fallen. Fallen hard.

>.<

Tengok gambar, jantung meletup.

Jantung meletup, tengok gambar.

Gah, rasa nak je cari dia, confess, pastu lari laju-laju dan jauh-jauh and never look back.

(Ape point bagitau then? Haha.)

Haih.

You know you're just gonna get crushed, Azie.

Oh well, this heart of mine is strong =)

It's like...if I am really that lucky, I promise I will shut out all my guy pals and just focus on you. You are just that worth it.

Footnote: To my blogreaders (eceh ,ade kew? XD), blog saya akan menjadi tempat yang mushy sangat bermula hari ini. Ini disebabkan FB dan Twitter telah dipenuhi dengan orang-orang dari tempat kerja. Maka, saya kena maintain professionalism di sana. Haha. Di blog ini, saya tidak mengetahui siapa yang follow saya (kecuali my 16 followers yang bijak mencari jalan untuk follow blog saya walaupun saya tak letak followers badge di blog.). Be a silent reader, don't tell me you read my blog. You want all the juice, right? XD

2010-10-02T23:01:00.004+08:00

Are you somewhere feeling lonely,

or is someone loving you?

Tell me how to win your heart,

for I haven't got a clue.

Tagged by Gorgeous Maddy

2010-10-01T10:25:00.004+08:00

How "He" should be.

1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?
He should only be good-looking to me. Susah okay jaga orang yang lawa sangat ni. HAHA.

2. Smart?
Not to the extent of being a smart-aleck

3. Preferred age?
I have a preference for guys my age but my Mama is against this XD

4. Preferred height?
Taller than me would be nice...so that I'll fit perfectly between his shoulder and his neck when cuddling =)

5. How about sense of humor?
YES. I seem to fall instantly for a guy every time he makes me laugh. XD

6. How about piercings?
No.

7. Accepts you for who you are?
But of course. Don't try to change me...unless it is for the better and at my own time.

8. Pink hair?
No.

9. Mushy or no?
Moderation is the key ;D

10. Thin or fat?
Yang sedap hug XD

11. Black, Brown, Yellow or White (skin color)?
I like them fair XD

12. Long hair or short hair?
I don't mind, as long as he doesn't look like a homeless guy.

13. Plastic or metal?
Err...wut?

14. Smells good?
Yes.

15. Smoker?
No.

16. Drinker?

No.

17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?
How do you really define these people? Goody goody? Quoting Maddy: Boring! XD

18. Muscular?
It has to be just nice you know. Too muscular is kinda freaky for me.

19. Plays piano?
I don't mind =)

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
I don't mind also =)

21. Plays violin?
I seriously don't mind. Haha.

22. Sings very well?

YES.

23. Vain?
As long as I'm still the most vain between us two. And we all know, I'm not really vain. Hahah.

24. With glasses?
Depends.

25. With braces?
Well, braces eventually will come off kan? :D

26. Shy type?
Shy people bore me XD

27. Rebel or good boy/girl?
Quoting Maddy: Good boy who knows how to have fun :D

28. Active or passive?
Active.

29. Tight or bomb?
To what? Clothes? XD

30. Singer or dancer?
Both would be lovely. But must have at least one of these skills though Azie leans more to the singer XD

31. Stunner?
I'm barely a stunner myself so why must I be picky? XD

32. Hiphop?
Nah dawg.

33. Earrings?
No.

34. Mr/Ms. count-my-exes-until-you-drop?
Try some other chick/bimbo, you jerk.

35. Dimples?
Eeeeeeeeeee...cutenyer!!! *head exploded from the overdose of cuteness*

36. Bookworm?
Why not? Then we can talk about books and berdating di Kino/Borders/MPH =D

37. Mr/Ms. love letter?
In this world of wall posts, comments, tweets and blog posts?? YES. Wheee :D

38. Playful?
Anything to make our lives more fun :D

39. Flirt?
With me, yes.

40. Poem writer?
As long as I get his poems. Haha.

41. Serious?
When the occasion calls for it.

42. Campus crush?
Umm, I don't wanna hate my campus for no reason. So ntah.

43. Painter?
Can lah.

44. Religious?
He should guide me, but not preach me.

45. Someone who likes to tease people?
That would be cute ;)

46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?
Both also can but as long as there is time for me (Pressure pressure. haha.)

47. Speaks 20 languages?
As long as he doesn't use the languages against me >.<

48. Loyal or faithful?
Both.

49. Good kisser?
Why is this even a question? XD

50. Loves children?
Yes, because I do and I love a family man =)

GMH

2010-09-26T16:19:00.000+08:00

Think about this.

The person you are going to marry is walking the Earth at this very second.

That thought alone should give you hope to continue each and every day, knowing someone, somewhere is completely in love with you, even if you both don't know it yet.